kissXtheXheart

And for those of you who don't celebrate easter, have a nice sunday!

So tired right now, I can't stand waking up at 9:30 on a saturday. I went to my granny's today, we needed to squeeze her in before my dad's friend came over. He's in a band called Heavy Nova, I think they're pretty good, but whatever.

For anyone that likes the '8 Movies 2 Die 4', Nightmare man SUCKED. worst.movie.ever.
I don't even get the point of the movie, and the ending was so bad. Plus, the 'Mia' character was soooo stupid. HOW MANY WOMEN DO YOU KNOW THAT CARRY AROUND A CROSSBOW AND A RIFLE!!?
Yeah, that was a dumb movie. and i just stopped in the middle of this journal, and got completely distracted.

Wow, that was retarded. First, the lady my sister babysits for, calls my phone, not my sister's. Then, like 3 hours after she calls, my phone rings, saying she left a message, even though I ALREADY deleted it. O_o what the crap?

kay, I'm bored with this now.

xoxo~raeee

so for the next like, week and a half, i have no school, yay!
I really am happy, you can see the enthusiasm. Look at the exclaimation point!
But seriously, I need the time off from school, I just don't like having nothing to do during the day. I'll probably sleep like 14 hours from midnight to midnight, then yell at people the rest of the time. I don't know, I'll think of something to do. Maybe I'll print off MySpace's privacy policy, and force my parents to let me get another myspace. We'll just see how things go.

I obviously don't have a life, because I read almost all of MySpace's privacy policy, like 10 minutes ago.
If you're like me, and lack things to do, go to youtube, and watch Reubnick's videos. They're hilarious, I'm friends with that kid, they're mildly entertaining.

I'd really like to find something to do over spring break, I feel so pathetic. But I guess it IS vacation, and why have to do something when, you don't HAVE to do something? [you know that made sense]

I think I'll be getting a new buzznet, soon. I still need a battery for my camera though. Out of my whole house, everyone just trades batteries for remotes, flashlights, stuff like that. We need to buy batteries, desperately, but I doubt we ever actually will unless some random emergency occures.

Do you ever just not put your laundry away? Like it just sits somewhere in your room, and after the first couple loads, you realize you're behind then don't bother anymore. I did that, now I have a pile of clothes covering a chair I never sit in. I have to put them away, desperately. It sucks because whenever I need to find something, I'm grabbing like 4 garments at once, due to the possibility of like colors; especially when it comes to black.

Kay, I don't know why I wrote so much, especially since no one reads those, whatever.

xoxo~RAE! [i took panic's exclaimation point, G-SNATCH. does anyone even say that anymore?]

I neeeeed to do journals/blogs more often, its killing me. not that anyone reads them, at least that I know of, whatever.
Goodbye blues came out today, and for anyone that even likes The Hush Sound just a TINY bit, its a VERY good cd, go out and get it, its not that expensive.

Over the past couple days, I've been wearing make-up again. I don't know why I actually stopped in the first place. Its hard for me though, because I have such deep set eyes, so any eye make-up I wear, looks a billion times darker than it really is, as long as it looks good, thats all I care about.

Once we get some more AAA batteries, I'm going to start posting pictures again, I might even get a new buzzet, which I would deffinitely prefer. I don't know, I'll see how things go.
Gah, I have to go take a shower.

XOXO~Rae

ps. . .is running my fingers through my hair really THAT annoying??

so much for a new journal every day eh?

i finally got my hair done, its like a honey blonde on the ends. my bangs look better than the rest of my hair for sure. it took like two hours, and its not even REALLY that light. ~whatever

funny how you know someone forever, and dont think anythings possible between the two of you. then you start to get feelings for that person, and everything just flips around. im going insane.

hmm, nothing really new.

Pizza party on the 19th
Solo Ensemble Fest on the 15th
Goodbye Blues on the. . .18th [i forgot for a second]
Pretty.Odd. on the 25th

i think theres more stuff, but i just cant remember right now.

gah, done with this

xoxo~rae

12 of my favorite songs

1. Paramore-Oh, Star
2. Fall Out Boy-Sugar We're Goin Down
3. All Time Low-Remembering Sunday/Poppin' Champagne [i can't pick]
4. Panic[!] At The Disco-Time To Dance [demo]
5. The Academy Is. . .-Classifieds
6. Motion City Soundtrack-Last Night
7. The Beatles-I Am The Walrus
8. Bratmobile-Cool Schmool
9. The Blood Brothers-Spit Shine Your Black Clouds/We Ride Skeletal Lightning [i can't pick]
10. A Fine Frenzy-Think Of You
11. The Maine-Shake It
12. This Providence-Anything Is Possible

my tagged will be. . .

williamxo, katiejrod, kaylachute, misskayslay, and nobodyshome

i just picked random people

I just pierced my  nose. it took like 20 minutes for me to shove it through the last layer, but i got it. I can't wait for my sisters reaction. Then, when my parents get home, their reaction, if my sister doesnt call my mom right away. I dont know, i'll just have to wait it out.

I got my hair cut yesterday, it needed it desperately. I just got more layers, it looks a lot better than before. I need to wash it though, its starting to look gross. I really dont have anything to say right now, im pretty much blanking out.

Um, i got two new chapsticks yesterday, because thats SO interesting. XP

kay im boring myself now

xoxo~rae

today was an amazing day. i cant wait till im older, and i can go clubbing. dance today afterschool, which are usually very lame, but it was pretty fun. lots of dancing, it was insane.

Im very tired right now though, i feel like passing out on the keyboard, maybe the dancefloor will drag me back to life soon. it was nice to hang out with my friends like, and just party. it was quite the party though.

my friend melissa decided to do sumo wrestling with my friend james, that was very entertaining. james wanted me to take pictures on his phone, but he abuses his phone. . .litterally, and it didnt work. right after we leave, it works, he was so mad, i just laughed. that phone was so cracked up, i couldnt believe it.

i wish i could be spoiled enough, to not appreciate the things i have, yet i dont. i already appreciate the things i have as much as i can, but i guess the non-chalant attitude would be nice to have once in awhile.

i might be getting my hair done, finally, i need it done. ill probably get it cut this weekend or something, then dyed next weekend or so. nothing is ever concrete when it comes to my hair, everything is just so. . .thrown out there and just goes with the flow. eh, i can live with that. people always say im a very chillaxed, go-with-the-flow kinda person. i guess i am.

i forgot to post yesterday. . .i think i did at least, but i felt like posting today anyway.

xoxo~rae

Wow, I can't believe I just posted a journal on sunday, it feels like a week ago. I guess its been a long past couple days. As for the title, its from my japanese class, it'd be funner if you were there. . .trust me.
I hate when you're mad, and you start to yell at someone, then they just laugh, and repeat the same thing that MADE you mad in the first place. So annoying, but I just forgot about it, she's ignorant anyway.

I'm over hating everyone, it worked for awhile, but I'm done with it. I don't want to make myself look constantly negative, even though I'm really not. People used to think I was the most optimistic person they knew, then I just started pushing myself away from people. Incredible social reform needed.

I hate going to school events, but I  haven't gone to the one on friday. They had it last year too, but  didn't feel like going, it should be interesting. I'm going to convince my friends to go with me, even though they went last year. One of thems' boyfriend broke up with them that night on myspace. I kinda laugh when I think about it, which isn't cool, but it just strikes me as amusing. . .I like to flirt with that kid sometimes O_o

kay, before i end up spilling anymore crap, i should stop this

xoxo~Rae

P.S.thanks audrey for the questions <3

Still addicted to The Blood Brothers, I can't help it.
I cleaned my bathroom today, it was quite the process. We have one of those old fashioned bathtubs, where its got the clawed feet, so we have a shower caddy. And we just got a new one, while we were putting it up, my mom hit it. The rod popped out, and smacked me in the side of the head. So right now, all I do is stare at things, I'll recover soon enough.

Yesterday I went to my granny's house, I haven't seen her for like 2 weeks. Driving through Milwaukee is insane, the roads are horrible. No, not the drivers, or the snow, the roads itself. All down, I think its good hope, is pot holes. We dodged one that was gigantic. My mom hates driving down there, but I just sit there and giggle to myself. I'm easily amused.

Today has been so dark, I feel like I'm living in a dream Pete Wentz would have. Everythings all dark. Weathermen predicted a crap load of snow, to start after midnight last night.

Not one snoflake has fallen. . .oh, until now. I just looked outside, and its finally snowing. But its little crappy, annoying snow.

If anyone actually reads these journals, they've got to be VERY bored by now.

xoxo~rae

I just made oatmeal cookies, my parents forced me to. i really didn't feel like it. I'm the one that DIDNT want them, but made them. . .whatever.

I never post journals, I'm always on buzznet, but I just don't feel like it. I think I'm just lazy, and getting lazier. I should make a point to post a journal like every other day. I'll do that now, it'll be easier for me, not that anyone reads them, I feel like I'm talking to myself, but I can live with that.

I think I'm done hating people. Because, I really hate most of the people that I go to school with, I think I'm going to try and stop. . .associating hate with everything. I need to try and find the good in everything, no matter how craptacular it is. I can find the good and bad in everything, no matter HOW good OR bad.

I have no life except to find stuff like that in things, I cant help it. My mom would get mad at me because she'd say something and the words would be totally out of order and it'd just sound wierd, so I'd correct her. She'd get soooo mad, but I couldnt help but to laugh.

Kay, my dad's up, and he hates the computer. I should wrap this up now.

XOXO~ Rae

0_o

My sister bought this Chapstick from walgreens yesterday, its called Softlips. I bought it awhile ago. it works really well, but i just sit here and put it on constantly.
I think theres 4 flavors. Isabelle got strawberry, I got cherry, and then theres vanila, and raspberry.

I dont like the strawberry much, it kinda tastes like cough medicine, but i tried the vanila that my friend had and it was fine, and the cherry is good.

Wow, i would talk about chapstick flavors. How sad.

Cleaning, cleaning, cleaning. Thats all i have to do all week. I started cleaning my room today, i still have a lot of makeup to organize. Theres glitter EVERYWHERE. literally. i need to vacuum.

Kinda excited for thanksgiving, i dont get to see a lot of my family members, but sometimes i prefer that i dont see them. They like to call me wierd, so yeah.

XOXO~Rae

I went to 4 different colleges today:
University of Wisconsin: Milwaukee
Milwaukee School Of Engineering
Milwaukee Institute of Arts and Design
Milwaukee Area Technical College

They were all okay, but they weren't amazing. I really don't want to go to college in Wisconsin if I end up going to college at all. The closest I'm willing to go outside of Wisconsin, is Chicago. I love living in Wisconsin, but I know that I can't go very far in live here.

We went to the Grand Avenue Mall downtown for lunch, we go tlike 15 minutes which sucked, but whatever. We got there at like 10:30, it was SO dead. And it looked super old. Like normally when you go to a mall, theres like a lot of newer stores and stuff, this mall looked like they made it to look really ahead of time 5 years ago, now it got caught in time. . .badly.

I'll finally be getting my hair done. During the week of thanksgiving. . .way to keep your grandmother happy I guess haha.

XOXO~Rae

Its wierd, like im only a freshman
and so many of my friends are on so many drugs.
Its insane, cuz theyve got barely anywhere in life.
And theyve already thrown so much of their life away.
But, theres nothing that I could do for them.

Yesterday in gym, my friend lindsay got a ball thrown at her
and we were all mad cuz she broke her collarbone that weekend.
So then this one kid threw a ball at him, and it bounced off, and hit me.
He felt really bad for hitting me, and he gave me a hug and stuff.
I was surprised he felt so bad though, cuz its not like we ever got along famously.
We're just kinda acquaintances. So we sit next to eachother in japanese.
But still.

I should write in journals more often, i would probably be happier that way.

XOXO~Rae

i found this on the fall out boy message boards

from what ive heard, pete wentz did not write this, a boardie did, people just credited to him

"Here's to the kids. The kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of whiskey[/coke] & Patrick or Sonny playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained high school party. Here's to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. Here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. Here's to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. Here's to the kids who listened to Fall Out Boy and Hawthorne Heights before they were on MTV...and blame MTV for ruining their life. Here's to the kids who care more about the music then the haircuts. Here's to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. Here's to the kids who hum "A Little Less 16 Candles A Little More Touch Me" when they're stuck home, dateless, on a Saturday night. Here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didn't even know they existed. Here's to the kids who have read The Perks of Being A Wall Flower & didn't feel so alone after doing so. Here's to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friend. Here's to the kids who are straight up smartasses & just don't care. Here's to the kids who speak their mind. Here's to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. Here's to the kids who second-guess themselves on everything they do. Here's to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. Here's to the kids. This one's not for the kids, who always get what they want, But for the ones who never had it at all. It's not for the ones who never got caught, But for the ones who always try and fall. This one's for the kids who didnt make it, We were the kids who never made it. The Overcast girls and the Underdog Boys. Not for the kids who had all their joys. This one's for the kids who never faked it. We're the kids who didn't make it. They say "Breaking hearts is what we do best," And, "We'll make your heart be ripped of your chest" The only heart that I broke was mine, When I got My Hopes up too too high. We were the kids who didnt make it. We are the kids who never made it."-Unknown

todayyy. . .i had to go with my sister to drop off her school crap, and we saw a few of her friends there. but when she opened her locker, the chick that shares a locker with her like put all her stuff on both the shelves and isabelle was totally bummed. then i showed her the locker trick, and her friends too, and her friends mom didnt like it, which i thought was kinda funny. well she never liked me anyway, but not my problem. isabelle was sooo confused when she saw the other girls stuff in there, she was like dumbfounded, i thought it was kinda funny.

otherwise today was uneventful

peace out

xoxo~Rae

today i went to school with my younger sister and we dropped off my binders and crap for school, and we just threw them in my locker.

while we were running through my scedual, we went down to my japanese room and my teacher was in there. . .ewwww, and we were talking to her for like 10 minutes, it was horrible. when we were walking back down the hall away from her room my sister was like "is she married" and i told her yes and shes like "ewww, and she has braces". and my japanese teacher is like 46 and she has braces, i think its time to give up.

then when we were walking to the doors these four kids that i know were like "heey whats up rachel" and i said hi and stuff. then while we were waiting outside, they came out and one named david kept talking to my sister, and asking how old she was and stuff i was like uuhhhh okay. then one of the others named yaphay was like talking to me after the others went in and i was standing by isabelle, and he like kept hugging me and stuff i was like ooookaay. and then hes like "can i see your glasses?", and me knowing him, i said no. so hes like okay and he gave me a hug again, and then kissed me on the cheek i was like EWWWW, then to  top it all off, he messed up my hair.

ugh

peace out

xoxo~Rae

today i got my hair cut, mainly my bangs, cuz they needed it. they were all the way down to my bottom jaw-line. now theyre just under my eyebrow. my length is about the same, cuz im trying to grow out my hair. the rest of my hair has more layers and it looks sooo much better.

while the dude was cutting my bangs, all the hair kept getting in my lipgloss, it was driving me nuts.

im super tired, i went swiming for about 7 hours straight yesterday, and the tiredness rolled over to today, and i neeeeed to catch up on sleep, its been horrible for the past two days, ugh!

peace out

xoxo~Rae

its super nice today, but im waay too tired to actually do anything

i went to bed last night at like 10:15 and didnt fall asleep until like 12, and i woke up at like 10

thats still 10 hours, but im stingy when it comes to sleep haha, and this has happened for like the past two nights, and i got like 7 and like 8 hours the other nights, its driving me nuts.

10 more days till school, its gonna be horrible.

peace out

xoxo~Rae

i have pictures that i took a few minutes ago with just my make-up and my hair done, but theyre not working at the moment

im gonna dread walking into that school

imma be a freshman this year, but since the district is wierd, ill be staying in the same school, then next year ill go to the high school

peacout

xoxo~Rae

i loooove my ipod, but for the past 2 days, its been driving me insane.

and since i was planning to get a new ipod, i want a zune now, cuz why get6 a piece of crap again when i can get something new, and probably better, stupid apple company

k, end mini rant

we have to go back to school in 12 days, and im hating it more than ever, i used to like school cuz i didnt feel lazy, but now i just hate everyone at my school. i wanted to move to a new district but my mom said we're staying here =P.

xoxo~Rae